The Lightbringer

You know, it’s funny that the last blog post I made was called ‘The Morningstar’. I have never ‘worked with’ Lucifer, but at the time of me writing this, he has helped me. You never know, I for one never say never when it comes to encountering or working with different spirits. Perhaps we will have a closer bond one day. Not that it matters.

I honestly don’t know where to begin. I did upload a video around a week or so ago, on YouTube, updating you all on my journey. Since then I haven’t updated anyone further.

Like I said in the video, I had planned to release a series on Patreon and YouTube Memberships, documenting my Tree of Life/Death experience. I have even filmed some of this, but thus far, I haven’t released anything. Something is holding me back.

Now, with my journey, I am keeping a diary of my experiences. And when I say experiences, these include things I have encountered in Astral Projection, any spells/rituals I may have done, and honestly, anything I have had to tackle in my mundane life as well.

The record is there, if I ever decide to share it. For now, I am going to play it by ear. Since this is a journey I am still going through, it has taken a lot of unexpected twists and turns.

If you tuned into that video on YouTube, I essentially jumped from Malkuth to Gamaliel, which is going from the Sefirot to the Qlippoth. The Tree of Life to The Tree of Death.

Lilith was responsible of this, and truthfully my connection and bond with her as grown exponentially since then. Whatever happens, I feel safe, I feel welcome, and I feel like this is right - for me and for my soul.

I may not be the stereotypical Left Hand Path practitioner, but, I am accepting that this is what I am.

At the time of me writing this, I journeyed through to A’rab Zaraq from Gamaliel. Traditionally you could take the route to Samael, but this was not the case for me for some reason. Honestly, I am just taking things as they come to me, keeping an open mind, and going through this intuitively, since I have no idea what side of the tree I will even stay on at this point.

A’rab Zaraq is traditionally ruled over by Ba’al. It is the ‘dark side’ of Venus, which, spoiler, was confirmed later by Lucifer to me.

I never met Ba’al in that realm however, not fully. I saw Morrigan briefly, but, my guide unexpectedly was Vlad The Impaler. Not the egregore vampire Vlad, but the historical spirit manifested to me. Perhaps it was tied to by subconscious fears.

I went through a lot these past few weeks being in this sphere. All my hidden insecurities were coming forward. I have been triggered left and right. Until very recently when Lucifer came to me again.

I was going readings all day for other people, for customers, my deity confirmations, Lucifer came through so many times. But not just him. Others like him. Horus. A Shinto god that embodied the morningstar. Loki….all these adversarial type beings. Or those that embodied the morningstar.

I also felt the presence of Adrammelech (who I later found out is a part of Samael’s sphere). 

To cut a long story short, Lucifer essentially guided me through the next tunnel, which links A’rab Zaraq to Samael. The tunnel is represented by The Tower tarot card.

He allowed me to have a ‘break’ after passing a test of A’rab Zaraq, which he himself presented to me. The challenge was for me to describe myself without being negative, in a nutshell, and I managed to do so.

For me, that was an extremely hard thing to do. I have never been able to do it, since being a kid, I have always been very overly critical of myself due to my trauma.

And so, here I am, managing to update you on things so far, and being allowed a couple days respite to just be human.

Spiritual work is not for the faint of heart, no matter what sort of work you do. As above so below, meaning, it is draining and tiring, and we need to look after ourselves. Prioritise our time and our energy, as it is valuable.

The Morningstar

Well, it’s been a little while since I had a chance to update you guys. Since the last blog post, I have had so many more experiences in the Sefirot, among other things. I have decided to keep a little diary for Patreon and Memberships on YouTube, so those episodes will be coming out soon.

Honestly, I am so grateful. I am so grateful for what I get to do, and the people I get to meet through doing this. However, at the time of writing, I am so damn tired.

I find myself saying more often than not ‘I’m busy’. It sounds like some kind of feeble excuse, but it’s not. I truly am busy. There is always something to do, whether it is in the physical or spiritual. I just wish I had more time in the day sometimes!

I don’t get to respond to as many messages, comments, or emails as I would like to. I wish I could take an hour or so with everyone, but I just can’t.

Still, I want you all to know how thankful I am, and that I do see you…I do hear you.

Today, well, it’s been a full day packed with readings. I did around eight deity confirmations today, and my head is spinning I must admit, haha.

Lucifer seems to have been a common theme today though. He has come through for most people today, and I wonder…is this a sign? Not just for me, but for us all.

Lucifer. The Morningstar. Demonised. Said to be a fallen angel, right?

But is he truly? For the Morningstar is also Horus. It is also Jesus Christ aka Yeshua.

And it is also Hecate in her Phosphorus form.

Right now, I realise, we need deities more than ever. Whoever they may be. We need their strength to help us find our own strength. We need belief - and I have that belief.

I lend you all some of my strength while we are going through this current time period.

‘This too shall pass’.

The Cailleach

I am writing this post as I feel truly inspired to, and to update you all with my goings on in the Sefirot.

If you are all watching my YouTube, you will know that I was pushed to break free from what has been holding me back. Truly, for seven months I have felt this cloud of doom hanging over me. Now, it is as though the sky is blue once more! I feel so much lighter for it.

Now, as you know, I am in Malkuth. The first sphere, which is to do with the Earth and Earthly desires.

Everyone’s journey through the Tree of Life or Tree of Death, is different. It’s very nuanced to the individual. My own journey is too.

I have decided I will keep a video diary of my findings, as well as this blog. The videos will only be for YouTube Members and Patreon Members, but I do this, to share a part of myself with you all. And to show you all how the journey has progressed.

Today is 30th January 2025. Yesterday was a New Moon, sacred to Hecate. Tomorrow, 31st, is a recognised holiday for Hecate as well. Then, Imbolc is on 1st February.

My experience today in Malkuth, I was presented with the name Saint Maura. Then, Cailleach herself appeared to me. She is a deity I have only met in passing for other people so far, but, truly I feel an overwhelming sense of familiarity.

She is, after all, a Gaelic deity. My surname is from a Scottish clan, so I must have the blood in me…

She told me that I need to go right back to the ways of old, and recover them, to explain to the ways of the new.

I have a feeling she is talking about the things I teach people. There is a resonance there. Like, how us humans have many labels for things, but ultimately they are all the same thing. Perhaps…

I also found out that Saint Maura is Brigid’s sister. Imbolc is sacred to Brigid. 

Honestly, the amount of synchronicities I have been feeling lately is uncanny.

A Change of Direction

There have been a lot of changes going on, especially given that it has only been a few days since I last posted here. Sometimes, this is the way of things. A good shake up to keep you on your toes you could say.

Following on from my last post, and the client I have with the parasite. I believe this was a catalyst to get me to question my own power. My own strengths, and weaknesses in turn. 

I have filmed a Youtube video about this (which will come out in due course) but for now, I want to update you all.

If you are a follower of my channel, you will know that I have mentioned several deities in my life. When working with a deity, it is not always straightforward, and it is not always for life. Mostly, deities come to help you with a certain thing, then they may leave. It’s all very nuanced and it's all very personal.

Aside from my beloved Hecate, I have mentioned some other names, Lilith, Hel, Morrigan, Izanami - all of these particular names being dark goddesses. I have come to accept, I am an ‘avatar’ of the dark goddess. Not to say this out of ego, no, but that I have been chosen to help them on earth. Me and many others like me I am sure.

With this being the case, the aid Morrgian and Hel have offered me, I have not put in the adequate time or effort. I know this. I have been busy with other priorities you could say, and thus, nothing came to fruition. I may feel bad about this, but, everything happens for a reason.

Minerva, is a goddess that I worked with many years back, when I was new to my spiritual journey. Specifically Sulis Minerva, who the Roman Briton’s venerated.

She is not only a warrior goddess, but a healing one too. She taught me many things about Astral Warfare, and how to defend myself spiritually. I had not spoken with her in many years.

Following the catalyst, and my own person reasons. Dealing with negative energies. Fighting off parasites and the like. I felt that I had to contact her again.

She and I, not only are working together, but now she is my guide through the Sefirot. She has initiated me into the Tree of Life (Something I had been avoiding subconsciously for a long while) and she will walk with me through each sphere.

I do not know how long this will take, nor do I care to know. This is something I need to do for myself on a soul level. It is not about ego, or selling something, or saying I am better than anyone else by doing this - no. This is personal.

However, I feel sharing this with you all, may provide you all with insight. Who knows.

I already have experiences to share in Malkuth. I will keep you all updated, for those who are interested.

Now it suddenly makes sense why Hecate had me start this blog. 

You Cannot Help Everyone

Hecate brings people to me all the time, for many different reasons. Some of you reading this may have felt that pull. I get this quite a lot. It is not to say that I am better than anybody else, or that I am her ‘oracle’, or any such nonsense. I merely - know her. Thus, when she deems fit, she will send people to me.

Whether it is for advice, a reading, or something else. It seems I serve my purpose, regardless. 

At the time I write this (and I hope the person this involves does not mind) I was sent a special case. Long story short, this person has a very strong attachment, and I helped ‘diagnose’ this.

Now, the thing is, while magick works wonders it cannot be a ‘cure all’ for everything.

When it comes to spiritual attachments, some can be so tricky to get rid of for several reasons. 

One reason is that the person needs to fully understand, and fully release the attachment. If they do not do so, there is a risk of it returning. 

Another reason is that some attachments are so strong, I would need to be in the physical with the person to help them. Astral projection, remote viewing, these are tools in my arsenal, however when something is so strongly attached to a person, doing anything remotely is not enough.

It saddens me. I even asked Hecate if I could do anything to help, and essentially, my hands were tied. Other than what I had already done - no, there was nothing.

I have explained this to the person in question of course. I do care for their wellbeing, and if only I could travel the world and be an ‘exorcist’ I would.

What saddens me even more is those that sell such things online. Meaning that they claim to be able to remove attachments remotely. I understand, some people are naturally gifted at such things, and it is not to say that none of these things work. But, from first hand experience, with this and other cases in the past, most of them do not.

I suppose this is why I am putting pen to paper (proverbially) on the topic. While it’s all fresh in my mind.

Prevention is the best cure when it comes to attachments, keep on top of your cleansing! However, if you were ever to find yourself in such a predicament. Don’t be fooled by grifters.

I know this person I helped today will get the help they need. Many others however, they might not, and their problem may not go away.

Remember, you have strength. We all do. Even without outside intervention, we are all stronger than we realise.

So stay safe, and stay witchy! (As I always say on YouTube) It’s not just a cheesy outro!

Everything Begins Somewhere

If you follow my YouTube channel, you may have heard me explain how Hecate loves the written word. Certainly, if you took part in my Beginner’s Workshop for Hecate you will know this.

With this being the case, I felt her pulling me to start a blog. I looked at numerous options, such as Substack, but it all felt too obscure to me. Although I am a content creator, I am trying to cut down on the amount of different social media platforms I have, as this can become overwhelming. I don’t want to become ‘lost in the sauce’ so to speak.

Therefore, I settled upon posting to a blog on my website, as well as to all tiers (including free) on Patreon. 

So far, I have no idea what I will post, or when. However, I know it is important to do this. 

Hecate had me start writing a book months back that I haven’t been able to work on due to time constraints. I know this is her way of getting me to write in her honour - so I humbly accept to do so.

Everything begins somewhere, as the title says. It was she who put that in my mind. 

We, as humans, will never know where something will take us if we do not begin that something in the first place. Instead of pausing, and becoming stagnant, embrace the chance to take the plunge.

Winter time is about rebirth. We are over the darkest part of the season, and before we know it Spring will be here once more.

Whoever reads this. Whatever it is that is on your mind. Whatever aim or goal you may have. However big or small. Start working toward it.

For you will never know the outcome if you do not try.

More to come.